I want to snowboard now — Warning: Don’t expect much nuance here. I’m also done nuancing. Also, I’ve never touched a snowboard. Up until the beginning of this year, I’ve spent 3 years healing. Mostly under a blanket, scared of the world, listening to David Goggins. I’m feeling better for a year now. But every day…

I had a lot of talking to do — The last couple of weeks (probably months), I haven’t written so much. A lot of things happened. Good things too. Just a lot of things. Here are a few. I started feeling better Since I used writing as a tool for healing, it reminded me of a hard phase in my life. Writing was…

The only thing we came here for is be light posts. You don’t have to do anything. Just know you are light the whole time. Just only be that.

A page out of my journal 2 years ago. — Pain At this moment I don’t know how to move on. What are the components of this obstruction? Reflection I guess it is because: there are things to do, but too many there are things to do, but I am not sure if they are the right things to do doubt about…

Feeling satisfied can be scary. Once you start being more satisfied and stop needing so many things, you might notice some bodily sensations. I noticed some unrest and tried to follow my brain's logic. The thoughts: “When I’m satisfied I feel like I’m resting in a world that is in…

You are always with me. You ARE me. — You are always with me. You ARE me. Even while you might feel separate, something inside you will know that you are not. That deep knowing is not a knowing with your mind. It’s not something you ‘think’ or a point you will logically arrive at. It’s just the reality of you and me never having left each other. That’s a bigger truth than all the things you, and I, feel.

But what if you have impure thoughts? — Neville Goddard says in his beautiful melodic (almost singing) voice: “God in you is your own wonderful human imagination.” The first time I heard it, I was confused and triggered. My religious upbringing saw this as blasphemy. My humility saw this as arrogance. My rational mind saw this as incompatible…

Existence is illogical but it’s here — We have no clue where we are and what we are. Scientists might tell you that we’re in ‘the universe’ which started with a big bang, but we can never know for sure. Even if what scientists claim is true, where is this universe? On the other hand, religious people…

Just to see what remains — Being Empty I like being empty. It feels like being transparent. It feels like you’re a container with nothing in it and able to receive fully. Whenever I let go of my ideas of how life should be, I create space to notice what life is. This is scary too because throwing…