I want a lot, but not when the chase hurts — Doing Everything Being ambitious can be a cool thing. I grew up in a chaotic household that made me feel unsafe. Out of unsafety, a kid can develop many talents. Somehow, I felt that I had to know everything and I had to be able to do everything. It makes you a…

A life of conformity was unbearable — As a kid, watching her mother, she also tried stitching things together. When she fell and ripped a small hole in her dress, she could fix it herself. It wasn’t flawless. The fix was visible. She still loved that it wasn’t perfect anymore. She liked the contrasting red color of…

I’m a story teller and money makes stories uninspiring — Warning: No nuance here. Just some random thoughts. I started writing here because the platform is beautiful. It’s simple, elegant, user friendly, and there’s amazing content here. Thank you Medium for creating such a world. It has connected me to so many talented and inspiring writers. Ok, this is where…

I want to snowboard now — Warning: Don’t expect much nuance here. I’m also done nuancing. Also, I’ve never touched a snowboard. Up until the beginning of this year, I’ve spent 3 years healing. Mostly under a blanket, scared of the world, listening to David Goggins. I’m feeling better for a year now. But every day…

I had a lot of talking to do — The last couple of weeks (probably months), I haven’t written so much. A lot of things happened. Good things too. Just a lot of things. Here are a few. I started feeling better Since I used writing as a tool for healing, it reminded me of a hard phase in my life. Writing was…

The only thing we came here for is be light posts. You don’t have to do anything. Just know you are light the whole time. Just only be that.

A page out of my journal 2 years ago. — Pain At this moment I don’t know how to move on. What are the components of this obstruction? Reflection I guess it is because: there are things to do, but too many there are things to do, but I am not sure if they are the right things to do doubt about…

Feeling satisfied can be scary. Once you start being more satisfied and stop needing so many things, you might notice some bodily sensations. I noticed some unrest and tried to follow my brain's logic. The thoughts: “When I’m satisfied I feel like I’m resting in a world that is in…

You are always with me. You ARE me. — You are always with me. You ARE me. Even while you might feel separate, something inside you will know that you are not. That deep knowing is not a knowing with your mind. It’s not something you ‘think’ or a point you will logically arrive at. It’s just the reality of you and me never having left each other. That’s a bigger truth than all the things you, and I, feel.